It was the end of the world to me when I failed to secure a scholarship which would have assisted me to pursue tertiary education oversea. I felt my universe totally shattered. This is partly due to the stereotype my peers and everyone around me imbued my mind with such that studying in local uni is rather substandard to any foreign universities. (What to do? We Asians are raised with the mentality of the moon is rounder and the grass is greener on the other side)
But nevertheless, I'm grateful for getting admitted into local uni, doing the course I like. But deep inside my heart, I think things would have been very different if I were to study abroad. And yes, I was very unhappy (maybe I'm still a little, comparatively) in the beginning because everyone seemed to be very reserved and quiet and I could hardly make any friends. But thankfully, I made friends gradually.
Sigh. To this day, I still hope that I could secure a scholarship to further my education abroad. I felt really, really rejected. However, maybe I'm just not good enough (And my friends were like, "You should totally get a scholarship to do your degree in the states or soemthing." It was somewhat an unmarked expectation. Subconsciously, it upsets me even more. T.T) .
All in all, maybe this is a blessing in disguise. Studying in local public uni gives me the opportunity to visit my home very frequently. And maybe, things do happen for the better reasons. Who knows?